mistake n mistake n mistake. why we shud risk mistake ? i'll tell you why ..

"There are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake because the only way to really know it is a mistake is to make that mistake and look back and say, "Yup, that was a mistake". So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you'll go your whole life not really know if something is a mistake or not."

- familiar with this quotes? well, it is actually from series how i met your mother finale episode of season 1.

new layout .

i FEEL SO BIG AND WIDE AND WHITE AND SPACEFUL AND EXTENSIVE AND STRECH-ED.

ohkayy. as you guys see. ( for those who do visit this blog lah kan ). i just changed my blog template. TA-DAA !!. feels odd at first. but naaahh, sometimes changes do helps in life :) and sometimes changes is everything .

i'm happy for no reason. that's odd.

i'm obsess !

hhhhuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................... ( long sighhhhh ) tak tau sigh pasal apa but, siggggggghhhhhhh. hahah. well, i'm currently obsess with playing cafe world and fishville on facebook. yeah call me lifeless or lame ass or whatever shit but these game kick ass weeyyy. hahaaa. and now imma talk cafe world and fishville ye cunt (hehehe :P). oh i just spent i dunno how much $$$ for $800 of 1 sq ft of tiles for the floor on cafe world. which if i just added $200 more, i could get one nice dining table. :( and lately i often forgotten to serve my meals to my dearie customers. which makes me lost a lot of munneyy. :(

i know i'm cool. you guys are just jealous . ha-ha-ha-haaaa.

the underground and the 'upperground'.

underground is something that beneath something. it's hidden. concealed. maybe also can be defined as illegally known. illegally active. barely be seen. or i don't know, NOT IMPORTANT. trash. ugly. stink?

'upperground' is something that u see. something that u want to catch along wherever you go. something that you proud of. that u wana show up to the whole world. something you appreciate from outside and also from the inside. something that is REALLY IMPORTANT.

kan?

EARLY NOTES.

early morning. she wakes up.
and she knock knock knock on the door.
it's time for make up. perfect smile :D

and hell yeah. start kerja today. hhuuuurrrhh i'm excited excited excited okeyy. syafinaz, you're excited okayy. remember that. okay?? okay maybe i sounded like terpaksa or apa apa lah kan. make sense lah because i just start my semester break what? i just got back homeeeee like what, 2days ago?? it's not like i dowan to kerja. memang excited actually. but give me a little more time to rest can?

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pump up ngeeee. ya maaannn.

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one morrreee jeeeeea.

it sooo stressful to see other ppl oround you dah start packing, getting ready to go back home for semester break. but then kita still tgh struggle nak study for final paper. orang semua dah boleh berfoya foya but kita (okay lah berfoya foya jugak lah) but still restless lah kann. ggggrrrrr.

i hate hate hate.

Y A W N N N N :0

grrrrrr. i neeeed sleeeepp. didnt get enough of sleep latelyy. :( and my eye bag is getting obvious. hello i am a freaking panda now :) eh dari dulu lagi panda actually.. ihhikk ihhikk. :P one more paper to goo. am so happiii :DD

NAH EYE BAG !! HAHAHA REAL PUNYA 'EYE BAG'

:P

p/s = i hate that bitch :)

YOU CHANGED MY LIFE .

thank you sayangg. u changed my life. i could not imagine hows my life without you leading my way, showing me the world.. open up my eyes yadda yaddaa yaddaaa bla bla BULLSHIT LAH.

hehe bukan nak drama here yah ;P but come on guys. i don't think that someone could have the power to change someone's life or future or whatever. to be realistic, for me whatever it is, kena datang dari diri sendiri. you yourself decides whether to change or not. to run or walk. to cry or to scream. to stab your chest with scissor or to eat cotton candy. people around you can just give you the guidance, clue or route. but the main point here is. it is you yourself who control your brain. your heart. your desire and decision. you cud've just ignore them if u want to. or on the other hand you listen to them :) soo, the power is actually in your hand. stop rely on anyone else. and stop acting hopeless. :)

i hate study :S

I AM BETTER ON MY OWN :)

it is sooo much better to be all alone, and to be success. than to be in a relationship and feel like a failure all the time :)

i feel sooo much alive single :) soooo much stronger ! and soooo much easy energetic carefree happy sweet pretty proud discovery respect cherish . i'm not saying that i don't need guy. that's bullshit. yes i need you. when the time has come. i will get married to 'the guy'. have a family and kids with him. spend the rest of my life with him. but i think. for now. i deserve to enjoy my life to the fullest. without tied up with any commitments and responsibilities and whatever shit laaa. in fact, i feel more loved when i'm single. hurrrmmm that's wierdd :S

sasya. hhaha.