FML !

SERIOUSLY . MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS !

GGGRRRRRRRRRR !!!

i NEEEDDD munneyyy !! i NEED to go shoppinggg !!! i NEED to buy clothes, dresses, heels, handbags, digital camera, blackberry, beanie, pumps, bangles, sunniess, leather jacket, external hardisk, new 3 in 1 printer, make ups. i NEED to pay my goddam phone bill !! i have to pay my scholl fees sumore.. zzzzzzz..

MONEY MONEY MONEY !!!

come to mama. LOL.

-VALENTINE'S DAY-

I AM GOING TO LOVE THIS MOVIE !!

PLOT

In Los Angeles the lives of an army officer, Kate (Julia Roberts), a passenger on a flight from Iraq to LA (Bradley Cooper), the owner of a florist (Ashton Kutcher) who proposed marriage to his girlfriend (Jessica Alba while learning his best friend (Jennifer Garner)'s boyfriend (Patrick Dempsey) is actually married, that of an assistant (Anne Hathaway), that of a retiree (Shirley MacLaine), and of a publicist (Jessica Biel) casually intertwine on Valentine's Day.

CAST

• Jessica Alba as Morely Clarkson
• Jessica Biel as Kara
• Bradley Cooper as Holden
• Ashton Kutcher as Reed Bennett
• Alex Williams as Josh Curts
• Julia Roberts as Kate
• Jamie Foxx as Kelvin
• Anne Hathaway as Liz
• Jennifer Garner as Julia
• Patrick Dempsey as Harrison Copeland
• Eric Dane as Sean Jackson
• Emma Roberts as Janice
• Queen Latifah as Paula Thomas
• Topher Grace as Jason
• Carter Jenkins as Alex
• Shirley MacLaine as Estelle
• Hector Elizondo as Edgar
• Taylor Lautner as Willie
• Taylor Swift as Felicia
• George Lopez as Alphonso
• Yasmien Kurdi as Joanna
• Marriel Marciano as Marzita
• Rogelio Singedas as Kakuskus

december.

why cant every guy be like you ?

mistake n mistake n mistake. why we shud risk mistake ? i'll tell you why ..

"There are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake because the only way to really know it is a mistake is to make that mistake and look back and say, "Yup, that was a mistake". So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you'll go your whole life not really know if something is a mistake or not."

- familiar with this quotes? well, it is actually from series how i met your mother finale episode of season 1.

new layout .

i FEEL SO BIG AND WIDE AND WHITE AND SPACEFUL AND EXTENSIVE AND STRECH-ED.

ohkayy. as you guys see. ( for those who do visit this blog lah kan ). i just changed my blog template. TA-DAA !!. feels odd at first. but naaahh, sometimes changes do helps in life :) and sometimes changes is everything .

i'm happy for no reason. that's odd.

i'm obsess !

hhhhuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................... ( long sighhhhh ) tak tau sigh pasal apa but, siggggggghhhhhhh. hahah. well, i'm currently obsess with playing cafe world and fishville on facebook. yeah call me lifeless or lame ass or whatever shit but these game kick ass weeyyy. hahaaa. and now imma talk cafe world and fishville ye cunt (hehehe :P). oh i just spent i dunno how much $$$ for $800 of 1 sq ft of tiles for the floor on cafe world. which if i just added $200 more, i could get one nice dining table. :( and lately i often forgotten to serve my meals to my dearie customers. which makes me lost a lot of munneyy. :(

i know i'm cool. you guys are just jealous . ha-ha-ha-haaaa.

the underground and the 'upperground'.

underground is something that beneath something. it's hidden. concealed. maybe also can be defined as illegally known. illegally active. barely be seen. or i don't know, NOT IMPORTANT. trash. ugly. stink?

'upperground' is something that u see. something that u want to catch along wherever you go. something that you proud of. that u wana show up to the whole world. something you appreciate from outside and also from the inside. something that is REALLY IMPORTANT.

kan?

EARLY NOTES.

early morning. she wakes up.
and she knock knock knock on the door.
it's time for make up. perfect smile :D

and hell yeah. start kerja today. hhuuuurrrhh i'm excited excited excited okeyy. syafinaz, you're excited okayy. remember that. okay?? okay maybe i sounded like terpaksa or apa apa lah kan. make sense lah because i just start my semester break what? i just got back homeeeee like what, 2days ago?? it's not like i dowan to kerja. memang excited actually. but give me a little more time to rest can?

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pump up ngeeee. ya maaannn.

!

one morrreee jeeeeea.

it sooo stressful to see other ppl oround you dah start packing, getting ready to go back home for semester break. but then kita still tgh struggle nak study for final paper. orang semua dah boleh berfoya foya but kita (okay lah berfoya foya jugak lah) but still restless lah kann. ggggrrrrr.

i hate hate hate.

Y A W N N N N :0

grrrrrr. i neeeed sleeeepp. didnt get enough of sleep latelyy. :( and my eye bag is getting obvious. hello i am a freaking panda now :) eh dari dulu lagi panda actually.. ihhikk ihhikk. :P one more paper to goo. am so happiii :DD

NAH EYE BAG !! HAHAHA REAL PUNYA 'EYE BAG'

:P

p/s = i hate that bitch :)

YOU CHANGED MY LIFE .

thank you sayangg. u changed my life. i could not imagine hows my life without you leading my way, showing me the world.. open up my eyes yadda yaddaa yaddaaa bla bla BULLSHIT LAH.

hehe bukan nak drama here yah ;P but come on guys. i don't think that someone could have the power to change someone's life or future or whatever. to be realistic, for me whatever it is, kena datang dari diri sendiri. you yourself decides whether to change or not. to run or walk. to cry or to scream. to stab your chest with scissor or to eat cotton candy. people around you can just give you the guidance, clue or route. but the main point here is. it is you yourself who control your brain. your heart. your desire and decision. you cud've just ignore them if u want to. or on the other hand you listen to them :) soo, the power is actually in your hand. stop rely on anyone else. and stop acting hopeless. :)

i hate study :S

I AM BETTER ON MY OWN :)

it is sooo much better to be all alone, and to be success. than to be in a relationship and feel like a failure all the time :)

i feel sooo much alive single :) soooo much stronger ! and soooo much easy energetic carefree happy sweet pretty proud discovery respect cherish . i'm not saying that i don't need guy. that's bullshit. yes i need you. when the time has come. i will get married to 'the guy'. have a family and kids with him. spend the rest of my life with him. but i think. for now. i deserve to enjoy my life to the fullest. without tied up with any commitments and responsibilities and whatever shit laaa. in fact, i feel more loved when i'm single. hurrrmmm that's wierdd :S

sasya. hhaha.

same girl

it's the same girl in both music video.

how lucky is that girl laa.

sasya ward :)

you leave me breathless !

i am so obsess with you.

i want to marry you <3

sasya ward <3

S E T E M .

okay rakan rakan sekalian.

me and my fren qilah baru je habis tgk cerita setem the movie sambil makan makan our dinner. nasi goreng eeyy itu bombay mari and nasi goreng seafood. :) the movie sgt sgt kelakar nak mampos !! hahahahahhahahaaaaaaaa !!! stil mcm nak gelak lagi teringat cerita tu. dulu time ada dekat wayang tak sempat nak tgk. sooo, dah lama tunggu dia keluar dekat youtube and finally today after two of my finals paper down pagi and petang tadi, tonite balas dendam lahh. okey this is a film from khabir bhatia. sinopsis xnak cerita.. tgk sendiri okey. tapi mmg worth it laaaa p.. :D featuring afdlin shauki ( mmg annoying gila dalam cerita ni ), got rashidi ishak ( so cuuteee :> [laki org ni bhaii] ), que haidar ( sgt blur and innocent and noob. haha lawak gila ), sathiya ( ni mmg annoying and mintak penampar punya org dekat dlm cerita tu :P ), vanida imran and ramai lagi yg i xberapa tau nama. and butangg?? jadi pak indon. :P

watch setem the movie from youtube. crdt to irienad.

and sorry to maizan mustaffa, yusof and anuar cuz u guys call i tak dgr ( if they ever read my blog lah kaann. haha perasan ). concentrate sgt tgk cerita nii :P

kena sambung study balik daaaa :S

sasya.

KEMATIAN.

I IS DEADDEADDEADDEADDEAD.

CLICK HERE HERE HERE !

ALREADY DEAD. IS IN HELL :s

SASYA.

FREAK OUT !

freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out freak out

i am freaking out,

sasyaaaaa.

f a c e b o o k

i hate facebook at the moment.

facebook is a badass.

i shud keep in distant with you, facebook. u make me..

• malas.
• berangan.
• sakit hati.
• buang masa.
• buat dosa :P
• kerja tangguh.
• tak study.
• membazir electric.
• merabunkan mata.

i shud go study..

sasya :S

TAHITI

let's go TAHITI !!!!!!!

please lah acknowledge the beauty of this mother nature.

tengok lah how crystal clear is the water.

eeeii geramnyee!

:S

i need this at the moment.

the smoothie breeze all..

the fresh salt smell from the sea.

the warm glittering and golden sand.

and like i can see no building standing up around me.

nothing in between my view.

and imagine laying down on the sand.

eating ice cream. eeeii bestnyeee. grrr.

feels like every of my problems flew away along the winds.

going going gone farrr away and then faded forever.

yea yea rightt..

but don't worry, i'm living with reality here..

all this tahiti shit is not gonna cut my problems off ponn.

but i need a time break.

pergi pantai lah nanti ! menarik ! :)

i don't like this game anymore..

icy dreamyy.

sasya :S

when it was me - paula deanda

dengar lagu penuh dari youtube.com ( click sini )

Ooh, no
Yeah, yeah

She's got green eyes and she's 5'5
Long brown hair all down her back
Cadilliac truck
So the hell what
What's so special about that
She use to model, she's done some acting
So she weighs a buck of 5
And I guess that she's alright if perfection is what you like

Ooh, ooh,
And I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh,
I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh,
You look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you use to look at me that way

Tell me what makes her so much better than me
(so much better than me)
What makes her just everything that I can never be
(I can never be)
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me

And now you don't feel the same,
I remember you would shiver everytime I said your name,
You said nothing felt as good as when you gazed into my eyes,
Now you don't care I'm alive,
How did we let the fire die

Ooh, ooh,
And I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh,

I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh,
You look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you use to look at me that way

Oh what makes her so much better than me?
(what makes her so much better than me?)
What makes her just everything that I can never be?
(I can never be)
What makes her your every dream and fantasy?
Because I can remember when it was me

That made you smile (me)
That made you laugh
Even if it made you happier than you have ever been, oh me
That was your world (me)
Your perfect girl
Nothing about me has changed
That's why I'm here wondering

What makes her so much better than me
(so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be
(I can never be)
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me

What makes her so much better than me
(So much better than me)
What makes her just everything that I can never be
(I can never be)
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was meeeeeeeeeee

When it was me
When it was me
When it was me

sasya

yesterday's feeling.

i tot i would be okayy.

actually, i AM okay.

but still, i do feel something.

something that could stop me from smiling.

something that make my day restless.

there's some energy that blocked me to feel..

for god sake for surely i know that i SHOULD NOT feel like this.

i deserve to be happy, to be seen, to be cared, and whatever other stuff.

but.. yeah there's 'but' at the end of my phrase kann. A LOT actually!

idk whether i am being too pessimistic or what. but i can't control myself this time.

sort of tired of fighting in this game. bila lah nak game over?? :S

but i came to think of it back, it's okey syafinaz, it's okay for you to feel like shit at the moment.

to feel like your world is soo dark and cynical.(padahal my real life is soo far from it kan)

why should i lie to myself rite?

i just realize. actually someone made me realize that after all of this time.

i've been neglecting my life.

i created my own fake and so-called cool life. untill i myself forgot. where i was belong to.

i ought to know that my life is isn't that difficult and complex, syafinaz.

yea, please wake up and hold up to your own pillar (uww pole dancing :P hehe jussstt kidding :P)

yes i can do it.

dreams all real. all we have to do is just believe.

and one more thing, yes the dream, aim and goal is important.

but yet the most important thing is, the journey of reaching out the goal itself.

have u guys ever realize that the journey itself will make you who you are someday when u reached your goal.

it will determine how will you lead your goal afterwards.

life is like a long highway. it is still gotta way to go evendoe you already reach your goal ( let say tol tunai, touch n go, smart tag is a metaphors for goal from my highway story :P)

after we reached tol, we still have to continue driving to get to our home or kampung or mana mana rite??

it goes same in our life. there is a lot of thing ahead for us to reach out.

yea sometimes i admit that i feel like wanna give in and just sit back and lay down in my fantasy world.

but hello come on. we live this life once. so dont messed yourself up. errr evendoe i do think that i'm pretty fucked up myself.

yea sometimes i do feel like wanna turn back the clock and make it the day before before before before yesterday yesterday yesterdayy. wayyy wayyy back. where my life is not as complex as now. where i don't have to choose hardly in decision making. where i don't have to fight to the max for some shit. uughh annoyingg..

but thank god moments later i snap out from that kerja bodoh 'always want to look back stuff'.

there is nothing at the back syafinaz..

your life is more interesting ahead..

it is more meaningful and beautiful. but it's your job to treasure it. and learn it.

past is like one portrait for me to describe. it's something that tells stories.

the happiness, sadness, fearness, emptyness, angriness, disappointment'ness', and other 'ness'.

it is there, the story was there.. yea it's there for us to see. just see..

and to remember :) and then after that we will leave it hanging on the wall back alone..

but life ahead is a mystery. one exciting mystery :)

the most suitable song for this post is - a place in this world by taylor swiff. this is a piece from my fav list song <3>click here to listen to the song :)

and also many credits to anuar for tot me about a LOADS of thing when everytime we were talking to each other :)

i feel nothing.

sasya :)

why do people have blog?

i used to think that writing blog is for jobless people.

but now here i am sitting in front of my lappy writing a new post.

but yet, still i believe writing blog is for jobless people.

cuz i'm bored and jobless now. ha ha haa.

currently listening to single again - trina ft lil wayne, rick ross n plies .

joblessdotcom :)

sasya.

syurga cinta . hehee..

bored?

what the heck?

do watch this movie laahh. damn best :)

kelakar. sad. insaf. all blended in one.

and and awal is uber hawtsss ! :D

ihhik!!

click syurga cinta below to watch through youtube :)

-SYURGA CINTA-

support malaysia's industry laaah. c'on.

i bet you, the movie will not disappoint you.

sasya & awal likeyyy ;>

what kind of foolish ?

I am toooo kind !

yep! TOO KIND !

she did not deserve my compassion.

she did not deserve my kindness.

she did not deserve my forgiveness.

she did not deserve ME . as a fren or whatever.

but then again, it was still my wrong who are toooo kind

or maybe tooo friendly or toooo stupid

to invite her.

just for the record, i am still not ready to forgive you and not even him.

sasya. fierce.

my house from satellite view :)

frankly.

i miss hooommeee..

i miss my family and jerry.. :(

and i uberly miss my room.. :(

regards,

sasya :P

first cut.

i just realized that this account is still exist :P

i just want to say that.

it's not just only love which make us feel like a battlefield.

it's act life make us feel like in a battlefield. :)

current fav song = battlefield by jordin sparks.

regards,

sasya :)